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Hello Beautiful Souls,

We have a lot of new members to the community so I wanted to pop in here and say hello to our new friends and life updates.

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There are so many things that have shifted in such a short amount of time it's hard to put them in one Social Media post, podcast, or even email blast but I'm going to give it my best shot here.

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My faith had always been so strong, I've always known there is a power much greater than myself.

Constantly thanking God for my "Burning desire, fire, and unbreakable faith". (I also want to thank my mother for setting the example with her faith) but at the same time, I felt as though something was missing.

That missing piece was me, realizing that I too had a say when it came to this life that I wanted to experience. The power I had to co-create this beautiful life and bring my vision and dreams to life.

Which lead me to share my Manifestation stories as a Makeup Artist and start this community with my Podcast. (At the time it was the Makeup Mentor Podcast)

(👈🏼👈🏼 Photo of the days as a Makeup Artist)

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My life literally changed overnight

It took so much out of me to Rebrand to the Manifesting Money Podcast and speak freely about this work on Money Mindset.

Everything I had been manifesting for 3 years happened in what seemed like overnight.

Gained over 100k followers in 4 days,

My sales 10xed in a matter of weeks,

I had a loyal community of people who valued this work, It was everything I ever wanted.

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Reflecting on the past year...

I wouldn't change a thing. I'm extremely grateful for all of the incredible experiences I've been able to create with people who have truly impacted my heart and soul.

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Getting messages from you all on a daily basis about how much the podcast has changed your life for the better!

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Thinking back to all of the people I've been able to help by truly stepping into my light as a coach.

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What I'm realizing while taking a step back from all I created this year is that my desires are different now.

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The Ego has a funny way of distracting us with external success so that we don't have to feel...

Those of you who are loyal listeners know that I shared a very vulnerable story about a recent breakthrough I've had while working with my Coach, Randi Halway.

Who has truly helped me with my mission of loving myself to full capacity and seeing patterns I had not been conscious of before.

The biggest pattern I've become conscious of these past few months is the need to Save everyone in order to save myself.

An unconscious decision I made as a child trying to save my alcoholic father. "Maybe if I love him enough, he won't want to hurt himself anymore." ( Mariel my San Diego assistant recommended this movie to me and I really appreciated it Saving Mr. Banks. )

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(YALL TELL ME YOU SEE THIS SPIRIT!!!!! 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼)

The belief that: "If my family isn't suffering, my community is healing themselves, and my team is paid to do purposeful tasks" then I am safe. Then I am enough. Then I am worthy...has been a vicious cycle for years.

Which is the current cycle that I am consciously breaking through by shining light on it, releasing the judgment on it, and truly allowing myself to feel.

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Now that I'm here in the city of my dreams and conscious of my biggest block, here is what has shifted.

The more time I sit in silence the brutally honest I become with myself, which I truly believe is the deepest level of self-love. Admitting to yourself that your deepest desires aren't exactly what you want.

I'm grateful for all of the lives I impact with my Educational Content, but what happens if I don't want to do it anymore?

Will I still be loved? Will I still be accepted? Will I still be of service?

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The truth is that I don't actually want what I have been consciously manifesting...

I don't want to work on the next big thing, I don't want to launch, I don't want to build my team, I don't want to get the hottest celebrities on my podcast... I just want to be.

If you would of asked what life would look like living in New Yorky City 12 months ago my answer would be completely different, I'd be SHOCKED if you told me that...

• I'm going back to the Church, Healing my Realtionship with my Heavenly Father.
• That It's almost been one year since I've been sober
• and I have such a huge desire to go BACK TO WORK!!!! (I want to be part of a team)

Reconnecting with my faith with a new mindset has completely shifted my world for the better. There's no other way to describe how I feel other than, whole.

The more I learn the more questions I have but I continue to be open, to be curious, to test theries and principals that do or don't align with me.

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With that being said I am taking a step back...

From Educational Content, from tiktok, from Podcast Interviews and taking time to fill my cup up so full that I have more than enough to share.

I'm setting a new foundation for this life in the City I love the most.

(YALL I'M SO EXCITED TO FIND WAYS I CAN USE ALL THE TALENTS I'VE AQUIRED TO BE OF SERVICE AT A NEW LEVEL!)

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What this is going to look like

Last episodes of this season this month!

When we come back WE'RE TELLING STORIES!!! (I'm not sure if I've mentioned it here, but my favorite podcast are Morbid, Murder with My Husband and Two Girls One Ghost!!! lol)

I genueinly appreciate the stories they share from their community, the time and energy they put into their research for these stories and this is what I want to do with you all! (Except they will be stories about Money instead of True Crime hehehe)

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My socials are going to be changing from Coach to Content Creator, focusing on the one thing I love doing the most which is STORY TELLING!

There will still be live hosted workshops for our community and open enrollment for programs, but my main focus this season is going to be on BEING and sharing every bit of this life experience.

Thank you to those who've invested time, energy and money into this community I am so grateful for each and every one of you.

Not putting a CALL to ACTION at the end of this email to purchase truly triggers my ego (needing external safety), but lifts my spirit because I am already so full.

So if you made it this far in the email again, thank you and if you're open to it I'd love to include you in my last episodes this years with YOUR STORY.

Cc this email and tell me what brought you to this community and any stories that you want to share with the world.

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Anita Mae Aguilar,

Content Creator / Story Teller / Host of the Manifesting Money Podcast

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